I need answers.

Do you ever fall in love with your best friend, and then realize that at some point it will have to be put on hold for a while or lost forever. Then when it's finally at that point, you cry and don't know whether to hold on or move on?

-Yes.

Do you ever want your best friend back the way he was before all is said and done. When you used to talk daily about stupid things that happen, assignments, a new joke or pick up line you heard, and what you had for breakfast?

-Yes.

Do you ever feel like you'll never be able to talk to him like that again. Like he's holding back, when you're giving it All you've got. All you want is to be friends like before. Let go of everything, and put yourself out there. But you feel like an inconvenience to him?

-Every day.

Are you ever willing to let your heart out again after being broken. Willing to be with the person who broke it, and be their friend. Trust again. Trying daily to strengthen and bring back what you once had?

-No doubt.

Why?