Story -May 8, 2010

Okay.. I know, I know.. All I've been putting up are poems. However, I just found this one! I guess I wrote it a few months ago, a few meaning a lot. I have a friend who used to encourage me to write poems often. He Loved them. So I would write. Anyway, I think this one came from a little push from my friend asking when he could hear my next poem. I was excited to find it, made a few changes, and here it is!

One day I was walking

Through a sunny park

I heard something whistle

I saw it was a lark

As I went walking

I saw a person there

Sitting on a bench

I couldn't help but stare

I sat beside that bench

And watched him quietly

He didn't seem to notice

That's what it seemed to me

This person was a stranger

A person I did not know

I could see something

I could see this person glow

He sat upon the bench

Reading something deep

I wanted to ask what it was

But I spoke not a peep

His eyes read caringly

He almost seemed concerned

I wanted to know

What it was he learned

I tried to read the title

To reveal what it was

It really shouldn't bother me

But honestly, it does.

His eyes grew very sad

A tear fell from his eye

He stood and gripped the book

I saw that it was mine

As he walked away

I thought what I did see

It made me sad and want to cry

I fell down to my knees

I prayed, and asked the father

Why this man had cried

Then something came to mind

For on the cross he died

That book was only mine

No one else could pay

For the sins that I commit

Except for he that day

But today is a new

I'm trying all the time

To be a better person

And watching for the signs

Today I've made him happy

He's smiling down at me

I feel just like a bird

I'm flying now, I'm free.

Cost -Nov. 29

Love is a loss

It seems it always fails

This walkway that I'm on

This endless count of trails

Sometimes I don't know why

I keep it all inside

Yeah, I say I'm over it

To others, and I, I've lied

Truly to be over it

It will take some time

Picking up the pieces

And matching up each line

During this long process

There will be a toll

Emotions brimming at the top

Tears falling from my soul.

Really?

Does this Really have to happen??

Almost Lover -A Fine Frenzy

Goodbye my almost lover

Goodbye my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Why can't you just let me be?

So long my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

Should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

Number one, New Favorite song.

Today.

Welp.. Today has been an interesting one, That is for sure! I don't know why, but sometimes I feel like I'm sad for no dang reason! Goodness gracious.

First of all, I woke up and got ready in 15 minutes. You know that's a problem when you're Forced to get ready in 15 minutes. Yes, that does mean I slept in. I don't know what it is about sleeping in, it makes you feel so good, but yet I feel like I just Can't wake up for the rest of the day. After my two classes, I met up with Jess and went to Institute. Second reason for an interesting day, Jess had a little bit of a dilemma to clue me in about and discuss. We ended up learning a lot about ourselves and the lesson of course. Lunch came, and left. I went back to my room and did a little homework. Third reason, I went to Jessi's room and we had heart to heart bonding moment, silence and tears included. I love that girl. She will never know how amazing she truly is. Well.. yada yada, What else happened? Op, we went to dinner. That made my tummy feel terrible. Why? Why must I catch what Jessi had just last week?? Oh well, there's a price to pay for having friends I suppose. I took a nap, played on my computer. The end.. I think.

Okay, I realize I'm being pretty vague. Sorry, sorry, sorry. I can't use specifics, or any minor details. A lot of this is tied to emotions, and they aren't my details to share. Just know that there is a lot of talking to be done! Don't you just love a close knit "family"? I do. Most of the time, Ha ha ha. In conclusion, as Yellowcard would say, "Everything is gunna be alright, everything is gunna be alright, everything is gunna be alright. Be Strong. Believe!"

Peace.

JESSI

Jessica Rose Hugo. Also known as Jessi. My best friend. Today is a special day, it is the day we celebrate the birth of Jess. Yep, that's right.. It's her Birthday!! Oh my, where should I even start. Well I suppose I'll first start by saying that Jessi is absolutely wonderful and doesn't like being the center of attention. Kevin, JT, and I have been so worried for this day. However, have no fear, we went ahead and made gifts for her anyway (And we've been planning something to do tonight). So far it's been great, we're all a tad bit sleep deprived, but we're still going on strong! Tonight we're going to possibly make dinner or just do our usual hanging out and homework, whatever the birthday girl wants to do of course. Well, Jessi is so great. She's funny, kind, considerate, thoughtful, gorgeous, and so much more! I'm so grateful I met her. She is my very best friend! I love you Jess!!

I Miss Summer.

I found this in my journal.. I guess I wrote it a while ago, sweet huh?

Summer Loving

Flip flop tans

Sun high up

Cool breeze blowing

Lemon aid in my cup

Windows rolled down

Music on loud

Dancing to the beat

The sky with no cloud

Working all day

Party all night

Getting no sleep

but that's alright

It'll end soon

Quicker than you think

So don't go now

Don't even blink

No-name.

Well, I guess it's one of those days.. The day I really should blog, but have nothing to say. I don't know why. I mean Tons has happened, I've been doing lots of school work, along with thinking. I guess I can say this much, I'm not homesick anymore. Yesterday my friends and I went on a little road trip to my house and back. We did stop in between at my house. My "family" got to meet my Family. It was neat. We got to visit, play with the dog and snake, watch YouTube videos, and more... it was cool to be with my friends and family like that. So, now that that's done, on to bigger and better topics

....Okay, I got nothin. Oh here we go.. What about this.. Sierra. OOH! Didn't that just send chills up your arm? I sure got the chills. This name brings so much warmth and joy into my heart. I love this name, no, I love the person to whom this name belongs. Sierra is 13, and always will be when I think about how old she is (Okay.. So she's really 15 or somethin like that, but I don't like the thought of her growing up). Sierra likes art, bursting out into song with her sisters, hanging out with friends, watching movies, and talking with her sister Jerrica. She is an Amazing artist. Sierra is gorgeous, she doesn't realize it, but she has so much natural beauty it's ridiculously unfair. She has a love for the gospel that shines in her eyes, when you're around her you can feel that she loves the Lord and is working daily to be able to return and be with him again. If you ever need someone to talk to, need a joke, a friend, or even someone to simply say, "hey, why didn't ya eat your toast?" Sierra is Always there. I don't think I will ever be able to thank this girl enough for the impact that she has had in my life. However, I do know that maybe I can do a little bit and be one that she can turn to, talk to, and always know is there. I love this girl with my whole heart. I can't believe how amazing she is. Always remember, I love you S-Chizzle.

The Latest.. On Paint.

Here is picture number one.. Ta da!

Picture number two.

And last but not least, a little bit of hope, in picture number three..

Sudden.

How much can a person handle till they burst? I guess everyone finds out sometime, right? Events lead up to an eruption, and then you have to work it out, be patient, humble yourself, etc. Sometimes I feel like it's necessary to burst in order to grow and mature. Often that causes a domino effect of realizing what needs to be different, what needs to be changed, what needs to be accepted.

I'm still working it out.