Happy Christmas Harry.

Christmas was Stupendous. Can you tell? We had so much fun. After church, the kids woke me up, and we opened presents. Dallin made Carbonara for lunch, then we all just visited with family. 

I Love my family, this gospel, Italian food, and pj's I mean, let's be honest...

those hoodie footies Mrs. Clause made are Awesome!!

Family Pictures.

Brilliant.

We all put on matching outfits. 

Blue, Black, or White. 

Dad and I set up the tripods. 

We hurried everyone out from in the car.

Snapped a lot of photos. 

Grabbed the Cams. 

And boom.

Done in less than 20.

Oh Yeahh.

David Archuleta is serving a mission.

Glittering lights.

Well, I'm finally on break from school. It's nice, however, sometimes I don't want to be home and wish I were still in Logan. So far every day since being home I have worked. Tonight I am working 7pm till 9am. My friend has the flu, I was already scheduled to work in the morning till nine, so I just added the extra 12 hours. All together I'm here for 14 hours. 

Let me just say, I am completely and utterly exhausted. Working like this reminds me of last winter break. I would drive to Stonehenge Rehab a few nights a week and sit, watch movies, work on crafts. I felt the same tiredness then. So many things have changed since then. But that's what this whole ordeal, we call life, is, right? It's all change. We change, others change, aspects of our lives change, and we change to adapt them in. 

Update

Cousin Michael Zajac has officially hit his Six month Mark. Richie Thomas will be hitting his later this month. I go home on Thursday (I think..), which means I see my family and Audra on in roughly two days. I start working on Saturday, two thumbs Way up. I take two finals tomorrow. My "Create Beauty" Project that I've given myself starts Today!

I've been sniffling, and sneezing. Eating popcorn, and a shake. I've been reading about Psychological disorders and treatments. Did take a break to paint a titch. It is now 2:09. Test at 11:30, then 1:30. I think we'll try sleeping now. 

Alright, I think yer all caught up now! Happy testing.. Let's see who survives. 

Let's talk G&P.

If you say, "I could of told you that." I will be tempted to punch you in the face. 

If you text me and say, "I'm great you?" I will answer and say you make no sense. 

If you write and say, "Oh don't worry, your fine." I will take a very deep breath, and move on. 

If you even think of writing, "Their so great!" I may egg your car. You gave me permission.

If I find out you said, "How about we eat dad?" I'll suggest you love your dad, don't eat him.

I don't care if you're writing a letter, a paper, or texting a friend. I don't care if you're a reader or a strict, "I-don't-read-movies-are-better" person. 

Please, for the love of all good on this earth, use correct grammar and punctuation.  

Thought I'd show you.

I apologize for neglecting you, I have had no idea as to what I should write about.

I had my friend give me a trim over Thanksgiving break, we decided change up my bangs. 

So what do you think? ..because I absolutely Love them! 

Anywhere

that's right. anywhere. 

let's go. right now. 

please?

From brick to Beauty.

Talk about an upgrade. I'm Looooving this.

That is for sure.

Want to take pictures, or go shooting together?

Done. Send me a text, call me!(I need practice..)

It was Beautiful.

We got up early. Dressed in church clothes, and drove an hour and a half to Sandy. As we entered the building you could feel a peace that was there. After setting down our things we stood in line. Ten minutes later I hugged her mom, she said, "Thank you for coming." I hugged Lauren next. Tight, and as long as I could. Tears began to show. Next was Maegan. I gave her a big hug. She whispered in my ear and said, "Thanks for coming all this way, it means so much to Lauren." That's when the first tears started coming.

In the chapel we sat down. Only to stand as the family and pallbearers walked in. The music played softly. We all sat as the last person did. The songs  played and words spoken were comforting, soothing.  Each with their own personal message, their own sacred prayer.

We left to find something to do until we could go back and see Lauren. We walked around the mall, ate lunch. The whole time wishing I could give her another hug. Thinking of her family, praying for them with all my might.

About an hour later we drove up to her house. Bringing with us a bag of her things, a blanket and some treats. She loved them, but was just glad to see us. We ate more food that was left over. Then we just talked like good friends. Because that's what we are, good friends.

Leaving was hard. Hugs, and "I love you"'s. Promises of seeing you soon. Thinking while we drove home, it was beautiful. The entire day was peaceful, humbling, comforting. Absolutely beautiful.

Since I'm Up.

You might want to know that this morning my alarm woke me up with "The Lazy Song". My motivation levels dropped about %98.

My brother made dinner tonight, so I did the dishes. Tomorrow night I will be making dinner (Lasagna, garlic bread, and maybe veggies), and he will be doing the dishes.
I miss buttercup so much. I'm very glad she's home with her family, but dang, she sure brightens up my day. Thank Heaven for modern technology.
Thanksgiving break will be incredible. I am more than excited to dress up, eat food, black Friday shop, see Aud again, and maybe get my hair done.
I got in all the classes and wait-lists I needed to get into. Except Math and English. I'm working on it.
Oh, and I am officially the Queen of awkward. Ka-Chang!

Time to do something productive. Gnight.

The brinks of insanity.

The following are a compilation of what I have said in the past three hours. Enjoy.

• "Every fiber of my being is rebelling against this annotated bibliography."
• "I'm using Wiki as a source for my paper. Sue me."
• "Please excuse my awkwardness. I think I'm getting bed sores from laying on my bed for two hours without moving."
• "If I could I would express my love to you all by flying you to a rice field in Asia where we could have a rose petal fight. Doesn't that sound lovely. But alas, I can't afford it."
• "I have the attention span of a six-year-old."

Yep.

-This cupcake is from Temptation Cupcakes. Jen and I went recently. I thought I had died and gone to heaven. Let's be honest, secretly cupcakes are still the greatest thing since microwave popcorn.

-Choco milk is definitely my new favorite food. TruMoo to be more specific. 

-Lately all I have been doing is sneezing, coughing, sniffing, and sleeping. (I was in bed until 1 today)

-Aud and I miss each other, we talk almost every day now. I am So okay with it. 

-I almost cried when I realized fall is over, and winter is very much here.

-I will move on, and it will be great. Those memories are in the past for a reason. 

-Life has a way of changing before we can even realize it.

Proud new owner of a MacBook

1. What's that thing you bought Dallio?

2. Oh a new Laptop?

3. It's a big new laptop!

4. I get your Old one? Weeee!

 Hello life,
   I almost forgot about the days that I don't like you. I'm glad I got you compared to some others that I've seen, or heard of. You keep me busy, and when I don't want to be busy and procrastinate, you come back to bite me in the rear. Thanks. I'll try and keep in line from now on. I'm glad you throw me curve balls, they're surprising and almost always a trial. I learn and grow from those lovelies. You keep my dreams in view, but far enough away to work for them. To be honest, I mostly dislike that with a Passion. I guess that's how it's supposed to be right?
   Send me some more challenges, trials, hardships. Send me some more friends, heros, and soft shoulders. Send me some talents, abilities, and inspiration.

Love,
J. C. Osmun.

[insert title here]

I'm so tired, getting ready for bed is too much. It's just so hard.
I have homework, enough that when my professors shove it down my pharynx it comes gushing out my ears and nasal cavities.
I feel sleep deprived, so much that if you were to put me in a room I could entertain myself for hours.
But hey... I have super room mates, family, and friends. NBD.

My life is incredible.

Today.

Today I had..
fruity pebbles for breakfast,
a hot pocket for late lunch,
15 cookies and string cheese for dinner,
and then five spoonfuls of nutrients for snack.


Today I went..
to all of my classes,
to the amazing library at the institute,
and window shopped with my two brothers up here.


Today I saw...
the beautiful season we call fall,
an old friend who has kinda sorta changed.
the incredible friendships I've made.


Today I loved...
that 10 minute phone call of hope with lil sis.
the math quiz that was homework.
my room mate (like I do Every day :) duh..)


Today I learned...
what it really means to not only have standards,
but stick to them.
that even when times get tough,
I Can Do Hard Things.

Stuck Like Glue.

(These pictures are HUGE.. and they can be, because.. we're just That cool :) Hehe..)

We talk to each other.

We used to play Diddy Kong Racing.

We watch Psych, Chuck, and more. 

We fight, argue, and get mad at the other. 

He knows more about technology than anyone I know.

I share my food and cook him food sometimes.

He helps me with my math and computer problems.

He sits by me in church sometimes.

And gives me hugs too.

We're siblings.

We're there for each other.

Oh hey, she made my day :)

Yesterday  my room mate and I were talking about Ensigns. I had been talking to my brother and asked him why he had a stack of Ensigns. He said it was for home teaching. I then asked him if each pair of room mates got one. He answered saying that each apartment will have One. People, that would be One Ensign for Six girls to share. So not happening. Therefore Jen and I were talking about how we would definitely be buying our own from the institute. 

Today I came home to this on my bed...
(And it's the General Conference Address!!!!!!!!)

Thanks Jen, you are incredible :)

The sun is Shining! The tank is clean! The tank is clean?!

Today has been absolutely splendid. Lauren and I went and got 4 lb pound bags of cookies at 6:30 this morning. Then we proceeded to go home and sleep for four hours. When waking up we ate and went to attempt to give plasma, apparently we have to wait two more weeks. Third times a charm right? Instead we headed off to an antique store. Most amazing, beautiful, incredible antique store ever. Following that we went to a thrift store and two book stores. Since we had nothing else to do, neither of us looked at the clock, it felt so good. We ended out adventure at Hobby Lobby, picking up paints, string and beads. Then we had a little bit of a craft night. Now we are watching Titanic. I'm going to go watch it now, because I Love it. Sorry this post is rushed, read it so it sounds like I'm telling you the whole thing without taking a breath it sounds more rushed that way. okaypeaceoutloveyoubye.

Pictures... Antique store. My Crazy Mane I call hair. The um.. bracelet thing I made for Laurens collection of rear view mirror hangings. Old books. A mirror and US!

Party at my place.

I am absolutely empty of things to blog about. I do apologize.
Please, comment and give me ideas. itwouldbegreat.

All five of my room mates are gone right now, except for me.

So what do I do? Well I've already painted today, and eaten food.

Yep. You're right, I pop some Kettle corn and watch Titanic.

Second time in three days(I think..). 

I think Rose (Kate Winslet) is absolutely Stunning. 

And Jack (Leonardo Dicaprio).. Oh gosh, yes. I am hopelessly in love.

Jack: Rose! You're so stupid. Why did you do that, huh? You're so stupid, Rose. Why did you do that? Why?

Rose: You jump, I jump, right?

Jack: Right.

Rose: Oh God! I couldn't go. I couldn't go, Jack.

Jack: It's all right. We'll think of something.

Rose: At least I'm with you. 

Did you get goosebumps? Did you cry? My answer is yes to both.

FixYou byColdplay. LookItUp.

Some days I feel upset, down on myself, insecure, and just a little melancholy. I'm not perfect and don't claim to be. So this is what I do..
I shut down for a few days, I push people away, and just want to be by myself. It's a terrible habit. I've tried changing it as of lately, but now I just seem moody/bipolar. Like I can't decide which I want to be, happy or down. I've pushed away one of my best friends here, I don't help to include everyone, and I've snapped at people for no good reason. It's not what I do, it's not me, I'm not like that.
I'm sorry. I hope you will forgive me. For being confusing and not knowing how to talk about how I feel, for snapping and leaving out, and for pushing you away. Especially you, I hope you can. You're one of my best friends.
I'm going to try harder. I'm going to be better. I don't care how long it takes, I don't want to be like this anymore. There's no room in this life for days wasted in the dumps. So chin up Buttercup. It's a new day.

On days like this,

Every thing gets on my nerves. Little things rub me the wrong way.

Don't you think so? I do.

Word of Advice

When you set your alarm make sure the volume is up.
If it is not, you will Not hear it, and you Will sleep through a class.

And if you have no milk to make Pasta-roni, you may or may not be forced to eat chili.

Oh, and if a skate boarder runs into you. You're ankle Will throb.

My day.

Hey, I had a great day. 

Here's a picture overload just so you can really know how great it was. 

I woke up and my blankets were Everywhere. 

So, I left my room an absolute mess and went to class.

 Laur and I tried to go donate plasma, we're going to go another time. 

Instead we went to an antique store. They had many dolls.

The sunset was gorgeous. and this is a Terrible picture of it.

 I painted on this punkin.. it's Kenzees. 

(and on another canvas, it turned out really neat)

Kevin came over and hung out a bit. He drew this lovely piece of art.

I've rewritten this one about five times. 

Josh is not pleased with anything I say. so this is what you get.

He's my adopted brother, just so you know (parental unit).

Oh, and I Love Kenz. 

Hope you had a great day too.

Read this. Love this. Apply this.

After A While

By: Veronica A. Shofftshall

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul.

And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises.

And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans, and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. .

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.

So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to leave you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure;

You really are strong, you really do have worth.

And you learn, and you learn

With every goodbye you learn.

I miss Michael Zajac so much that I...


Watched Titanic tonight while painting.
With Jenjen, Lauren and Maegan. 
Shed a tear, and made it my fav movie.
Listened to the song that we used to dance to.
"Near... Far.. Where EVER YOU ARE!"
And then it all went down hill from there.
My feet caught the corner of the couch,
I spun around one more time. 
I felt something stab my stomach.
And there I was...
Stomach piercing with hurt.
Head against that wall.


We all laughed and cried.
Then did a replay,
for Kicks and Giggles.  

Road blockage.

Went on date.

Visited with James and Mike C.

Eye lids still red and puffy.

Purchased 12 canvases.

"I Feel Like You're Pulling Out Your Dentures!"

(it was my retainer.)


Today I had a slight break down. School and Life stress me out. Spending money hurts my heart. I tripped and scraped my leg. Oh, and my eyelids have been swollen for three days. I cried. They hurt so bad. 


Then this happened.
I was doing English homework, she was doing Psychology.
We listened to Cinderella (Rogers and Hammerstein version of course) while doing our homework.
Talked and ate peaches (my room mate helps me stay healthy).
I talked on facebook with an old friend from high school.
And then we went to bed late.
I may or may not be getting roughly three hours of sleep.


My bed has never felt so good.
Until three hours from now, gnight.

Simplicity

These make me smile.

-Going on walks between classes, enjoying outside.

-Having a hard time walking after getting out of Yoga.

-Talking with Jbird while he shopped for food.

-Josh Bird and I having some JSquared time(kinda).

-Buying new colors and a pallet.

-Kenzeetah coming back from grocery shopping with a gallon of milk for me.

-Jenjen coming back from the store with cooking oil for me!

-Listening to Super Bass, by Nicki Minaj.

-Making exciting plans for Friday.

-Texting Aud Pod.

-going to sleep before one.

Knowing it will work out, I just need to be patient.

Come what may and Love it.