2.5lbsOfGoldfish

I'm sitting on campus right now in the TSC. If you ever want to, or need to, this is the place to People watch. I am afraid I'm going to make it a habit. My schedule is almost terrible. Only the timing that is. After my two classes every morning, 9:30-11:20, I have an hour to kill. When it takes 20 to walk to your apartment, lunch isn't even a good incentive to go home. There is no point in walking home, sitting for 20 minutes, and then walking back to class. Therefore, I will sit here, people watch and eat my goldfish. 


Some things I have learned already. 
It is so hard to meet new people, really, it is. 
Don't be late to Yoga, you will get the evil eye. 
Talk in English, he likes discussing things. 
Don't text, talk, breath, eat, laugh, sneeze or cough in Human Physiology, you will miss something important. 
You might get the same math teacher for 1010, the same one you had Spring semester when you failed it. 
Psychology may or may not be one of your absolute favorite classes. 
Paper towels Can indeed give you a paper cut, and it will sting. 
Sometimes you can't verbally explain your feelings.
However, some friends already know. 


Well, peace out girl scout. Gotta run to Yoga, and find my inner chi. Be back later. 

Immensely happy.

"Aim high, but do not aim so high that you totally miss the target. What really matters is that he will love you, that he will respect you, that he will honor you, that he will be absolutely true to you, that he will give you the freedom of expression and let you fly in the development of your own talents. He is not going to be perfect, but if he is kind and thoughtful, if he knows how to work and earn a living, if he is honest and full of faith, the chances are you will not go wrong, that you will be immensely happy."

— Gordon B. Hinckley

Yellow Highlighter.

Let's talk about today. Or rather some highlights...
-Walking in when Lauren said, "Pink Ladies are SOO juicy!" I didn't know that "Pink Ladies" were apples. I laughed for about five minutes.
-Going to the bank and refueling the account.
-Seen Jenjen again.
-Ordering 105 pictures to cover my wall with.
-Making Macaroni and Cheese.
-Walking over to the field to lay on a blanket and star gaze.
-Lauren saying, "I was willing to lay on a lump for you!"
(it was in the grass. However, it's a funny thing to say.)
-Listening to songs from Tangled.

Tomorrow we get to pick up pictures, and Kenz moves back. Exciting.

And You Know I've Tried.

When you listen to a song on repeat for an hour or two, you know it's a keeper.

And maybe it's that song that will help you feel a little bit stronger.

Sometimes it's okay to feel alone, so you know what it's like to be loved.

There must be opposition in all things.

Try to read as many books as you watch movies.

Getting a little sun here and there is good, it keeps you happy.

Often the only thing I want to do is talk to a friend, an old friend who know's me well.

Tell them what's bothering me, nagging at my heart, crowding my head.

Instead I write to my valiant missionary friends.

They like letters, and hey, so do I.

Life goes on.

Cherish your mother.

I'm back in good old Logan. I'm glad.
I unpacked all of my things. Met up with old friends.
Ran to Home Depot to get cinder blocks to raise our beds.
Unpacked all of my kitchen things.
It didn't hit me until we went grocery shopping.
I felt alone, even when I was surrounded.
I felt helpless, when I wasn't.
I felt vulnerable, with no reason to be.

I miss you mom.
Things are changing.
I'm growing up.

Change is on its way.

Tomorrow I will be residing in Logan. I am So excited for the small living space, living with five other girls, having to stock my cupboard, and fridge space with food. I'm thrilled to be going to school again, reading textbooks till the wee hours of the morning, doing math assignments every day, writing prompts. However, I am especially excited for Letters from loved ones miles and miles away, the way the mountains look when seasons are changing, walking into my room after a long day to see my absolutely wonderful roommate there. Yep, I'm ready.

Yeah, I'd go back.

Vacation

Yep. Tomorrow at 6:00am I will be leaving for Lake Powell. I could not be any more excited. I am Very ready for a break :) I'm going to swim, read, nap, take pictures, boat, eat, sleep, repeat. See you all in a week. 

YOu do the BEst you CAn.

"Of the highest quality, excellence, or standing:"

That. Is the best. 

No one likes to be 80%, it's not worth it to go half way. So let's be the best we can. 

Let's go the whole 100. 

Do the full math homework.

Run to the last yard. 

Give of your life to help others.

Do your own work.

Move on from better to best.

Leave if he's not worth it.
Find the one who makes you better.
Live your life the way you want.
Be the person you want to be.
Live with no regrets.
Reach for the stars.

Reach your potential. 

Invisibility

You know that question you ask, "If you could have any super power what would it be?" Well, I don't know my answer, but I have the power of invisibility. It's just not consistent. Really, truly. Ask my family and they will assure you that I do.

Everyone's around the counter doing their thing, mom's making cookies, whatever, my mom says, "Where's Jerrica?" I was in my invisibility mode.

We're sitting down, and I get a text from Dallin, who's sitting two seats away from me, saying "Where are you?" Don't worry, I was just in my invisibility mode.

Time to say family prayers, my dad looks around the room, across me. Then asks, "Hey, where's Jer?" "Hi dad, nice to see you." Eh, it's the invisibility.

Maybe I don't have the power of invisibility, but I like to think so. I'd say I'm just quite, shy, and to myself.

We'll stick with the super power though.

a new found love.

"Father, I bring thee not myself,--

That were the little load;

I bring thee the imperial heart

I had not strength to hold.

The heart I cherished in my own 

Till mine too heavy grew, 

Yet strangest, heavier since it went, 

Is it too large for you?"

-Emily Dickinson

timefordinner.

I miss My boys so much.

Michael and his hugs.

Evan and his laugh.

Fran and his humor.

Richie and his smile.

Taylor and his wisdom. 

Ben and his genuine care.

Andrew and his kindness.

What am I going to do without them this school year?

Break out the boxes

It's about time to start packing again. 

I have to say, I think I prefer unpacking rather than packing. This ought to be fun.

In other news. 

We have Italians staying with us.

Today we decided to take them to Walmart.

They were amazed.

Then they cooked dinner.

It was Definitely good tonight.

Even if it had about 5 vegetables that are on my "Do Not" eat list.

Sometimes you have to try new things whether you want to or your being polite.

listen&payattention.

colliding with mistakes
hearing nothing but tragedy
tripping over emotions
slipping on good intentions
leaving before it can stay
staying before it can find
crying for the unwritten
failing in the watch
yelling at the silence
climbing through challenges

being perfectly imperfect.

Soon

I'm ready to wear my jackets and sweaters. Curl up in blankets to warm up. Let the wind nip at my nose while walking to class. Let hot chocolate warm up my body. Read books for fun, and school. Be around people yearning for more education. Live at the library getting ready for tests. Watch for those I need to help. Become a better person.

Then vs. Now

"This is Just a Journey. Drop your Worries. You are gonna turn out fine."

My focus was dance, getting ready for college, working. 

I went on dates, and had someone in mind who had stolen my heart.

I thought I would always dance, college would be cake, and my life was planned out.

That was one year ago.

My focus is now figuring out who I am, becoming a nurse, doing well in school.

I haven't been on a date in about five months, and the one person I did love has changed.

I don't compete anymore, college was a dang hard transition, and my life is definitely not planned out.

That's life though, right?

And I'm going to be by your side.

Remember when I used to write almost every day?
Yeah, those were good days.

What happened? Hm. I have no idea. Let's back track and talk about the summer though. This summer has been incredibly different.

 I moved back home when school ended, it was difficult. I was so used to being with my friends constantly, then to move home and be around family sometimes? Yeah, that was a change. I started working 35-40 hours a week which really helped. If I didn't have my job I would have been very bored this whole summer.

When I wasn't working I would be at home, at the library, reading, or occasionally playing with Audra. She is so very Lovely. She works at the Charleston with me and I probably would have had an even more challenging summer without her. Love her. Okay, except when she leaves for weeks at a time for vacations. Who does that? I mean, I never did!

On the First of July, my brother came home. It was such a neat experience. He's different, yet still the same. Now a day, we hang out often, it's fun. He spoke in our ward and did a great job. I've gone to many farewells and a few homecomings. It's neat to see my friends leave and come back after two years of being away from their loved ones.

For the rest of the summer we have Italians coming to stay with us for a few weeks. Also, in about two weeks we are going to Lake Powell. I am so excited. I'm ready for a vacation where I will have no cell service. I think those are the best ones. Personally.