I don't understand

why some people stay up so late at night
why others use foul language
why i've been cold all day
why i have no motivation in me
why school can be brutal when required
why it's been slow and long
why i let my room be messy
why there's this empty feeling
why i feel like i wish i weren't here
why the only thing i want is to be here
Why I have to feel so confused.