foolofmyself

i blame work.
i blame my social life.
or really the lack of a social life.
i blame my contacts for burning my eyes.
the way they always do past 10pm.
i blame my body for losing all energy.
i blame my head for spinning.
i blame my sinuses for being stuffed up.
allergies quite possibly?
i blame my bed that isn't made.
i blame that email i just had to send.
when i should have read through first.
i blame the lack of fun.
life should have some zest in it.
i blame the time that i've lost.
sitting, because standing all day is too much.
i blame that overwhelming urge to cry.
for everything on my mind,
that seems like the easiest solution.
i blame those dry eyes.
i blame the dark empty house.
because life is busy.
i blame my insecurities.
i blame my imperfections.
because i am.
i blame myself.