At least once.

When I saw my siblings getting ready for a stake dance, Saige and Hunters first, it brought me back to.. you know.. back in the day when I went to Stake dances, Willingly. Don't worry. Things have changed, and if I hadn't been off to Aud's house to watch the Justin Bieber movie I Would have gone to the stake dance.

Anyway. At the time I would get so nervous and excited. Boys would ask me to dance, and when they didn't, I'd practice my ballet with my other friends. There was always one boy who would ask me to dance. At least once every stake/efy dance.

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My brother, Dallin. 

I'm calling myself out on this one.

"Smile, it is the key that fits the lock of everybody's heart."

Lately I've been feeling apprehensive. I'm probably still adjusting to being home. While up at school, I was always going, constantly doing something. I really liked it that way. This week has really been waring on me. Next week I start working, luckily. That will definitely give me less thinking time, and more time to give service. I look forward to that. 


It's been almost six weeks (Tomorrow, exactly six weeks) since the last heart break in my life. I know what you're thinking, "Six weeks.. Okay, that's a sufficient amount of time to be done." Give me a break, okay? I've heard that true love hurts. It's when expectations and reality don't match up. You find someone, and in your mind, everything is absolutely perfect. Blissful. Moments and memories are unique and one of a kind. When you realize it's all gone, over, you hold on to those moments and memories. It's hard to have let your Happily Ever After consume so much, when in a matter of slow motion minutes, it can end. Be cut off and broken. 


Don't worry. I still have faith. I know that the Lord is preparing someone for me right now. I've had that confirmation in my life. The waiting can get difficult, but it'll be worth it. I emailed big brother a little about this. He gave me some very comforting words, "That's the biggest thing I learned though. I chose whether or not I was happy. Just focus on happy things and tell yourself you are awesome and everything is okay and everything will be okay." I choose to be happy. Starting, yesterday. I can still have moments, but that cup had Better be half full.

I play.

I just taught myself Apologize by Onerepublic.
With the help of This Youtube video.
I'm quite proud. :)

.Bye.

School was to an end
I said I wouldn't cry
I knew it wouldn't work that way
I looked up at the sky.

As tears rolled down my face
Embracing my best friend
No worry came to mind
Not ever a bitter end.

I'd see her now and then
Not how it is today
I know we won't just stop
Or let our friendship stray.

i don't like angry friends.
i'm absolutely sick of it.
i have issues of my own to deal with.


on to homework.


cedar hills.
i'll be back in less than 24 hrs.
prepare yourself.

Hats.

Went to the doctors. Then I was a big girl and went to Walmart to pick up my prescription all by myself. ..okay.. Kenzee was there and I was on the phone with my papa the whole time. Look, I didn't have my  medical card so I Had to be on the phone with my dad. And to justify having Kenz there, she offered to drive me to the appointment in the first place, it was like a package deal. Walmart was included.

Doctor says headaches like I have are normal after having a concussion. Therefore, I must have had a concussion. I had no clue. No symptoms that would have me assume that. However, I did hit my head pertty darn hard.

I went to Walmart again today. Jenjen rewarded me with a five lovely quarters and the invitation to accompany her to buy some things. I bought... Warm French bread.

Oh good news, I wore my hat today. Loooove it. Jen wore her hat too. :)

Fortune Cookie?

I always get three a meal, unless it's a bad day and I have no desire.

Here are mine from dinner, in order. 

Prepare to be amazed. 

"A very attractive person has a message for you."

"A new romance is in the future."

"An unexpected relationship will become permanent."

Okay... Obviously I would like to know what this is all about..

Answers Please.